I'm so glad 2012 is here. I feel renewed and, in many ways, relieved. 2011 wasn't bad , but it was far from good. Friends who passed away, friction between extended family members, doubt of my ability to educate my own children and an overall feeling of helplessness. Towards the end of the year I found myself in a nasty funk that I seemingly could not shake off. I was in a terrible fog that blinded my ability to see the glass half full. I pushed emotions aside for another day, hoping that they would miraculously vanish from my spirit. Let it be known, pain doesn't go away when not addressed, it festers. I was consumed for months with this funk and decided I had to deal with my issues head on. Pain sucks. Addressing the pain sucks even more, but ignoring it was no longer an option.
Although, I'm finding my joy again, I learned a very valuable lesson in the process: Pain in inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Our life is not exempt from painful events. I don't want the pain to define me. I want my actions of how I choose to deal with the pain define me. Pain can touch every aspect of our lives and tarnish how we perceive our world. The great thing about addressing pain is that we still have the POWER to choose to see things in a positive light. Yes, even terrible events like someone dying. I can feel blessed for time, even a small amount, spent with an incredible human being. I'm not a Pollyanna, but I've come to terms with the fact that pain is a part of life. A necessary evil, I guess. Pain has given me the ability to truly appreciate the subtle joys of everyday life. And right now, at this very moment, I CHOOSE JOY!!!!!
Our life is not exempt from painful events. I don't want the pain to define me. I want my actions of how I choose to deal with the pain define me. Pain can touch every aspect of our lives and tarnish how we perceive our world. The great thing about addressing pain is that we still have the POWER to choose to see things in a positive light. Yes, even terrible events like someone dying. I can feel blessed for time, even a small amount, spent with an incredible human being. I'm not a Pollyanna, but I've come to terms with the fact that pain is a part of life. A necessary evil, I guess. Pain has given me the ability to truly appreciate the subtle joys of everyday life. And right now, at this very moment, I CHOOSE JOY!!!!!
What do you choose?
3 happy thoughts:
I needed this post :)
2011 brought many sorrows, our family lost my Great Grandfather and Grandfather in the same day. Then my mother a few short months later. I have gone through so much pain that it was, as you put it, fogging up my perception. Slowly I have begun find my way out.
Thank you for this, and I hope that 2012 brings much more joy for you and yours.
This post is soooooo timely for me. I SUFFER with anxiety and any emotions left unaddressed really find a way of manifesting in strange and unusual ways throughout my life. It's a bit of a nuisance for me, but insanely unfair to my family. They deserve better.
So . . . I'm back in treatment. It's a drag I shed lots and lots of tears, but I'm feeling SO MUCH BETTER already. It's important to face those emotions head-on. Believe me, I know of what I speak.
Good for you for choosing JOY! I think it's an excellent choice and much positive energy to you to maintain joy throughout this new year!
unicornnymph22-Thanks so much for dropping by and taking the time to leave a comment. I'm so sorry about your loss and the pain that comes with it. I was debating if I should even post this because it seemed like such a bummer, but I want my blog to be a place of truth. Thank you for allowing me to share my truth with you and thanks for sharing yours. Wishing you Joy for 2012.
MOM#1- I'm so glad you posted. I felt so alone dealing with all those freaking emotions. It's nice to know that there are those that completely understand. Therapy is great if you find the right therapist. I'm all for getting it out so you can move forward. Thanks for sharing your world with me and I'm wishing you JOY in 2012.
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